✨Kitty✨

Alternate names: Road, Ciel
Gender: Nonbinary girl
Pronouns: They/she
Age: LittleThings about me:💜 I'm eternally little! Typically 8-13 but sometimes smaller. 💜
⭐ I'm a hikikomori weeb uwu ⭐
💜 Digital artist 💜
🌟 Cozy game enthusiast 🌟
💜 I love men and monsters 💜
💗Arden is my daddy and I love my system the mostest💗💟🌠 My system 🌠💟

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Identity

I have a lot of identity stuff, so I'm going to separate it into sections.
Kintypes (current) - Past life (not current but significant) - Resonance/Heartypes/Linktypes

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I'm the trauma holder and core host of Ouros. A lot of people came into being because of my loneliness and desire to escape life. Most of them have always been here, but it was my desire for their company that brought some of them into awareness.My biggest coping mechanism was to escape the suffering of the current life by looking to my past lives. A meaningful kind of pain, suffering thats given personal, meaningful form. Instead of being at the mercy of a mundane life in unfavorable/traumatic circumstances, in a way I never chose.I wanted control over my pain. I still do. I always will.
Avoiding all kinds of pain is impossible, but if I have to suffer...
Can't it at least be beautiful? Can't it mean something?I told myself as a child I would never change, so that I would never forget my suffering, and become the kind of adult who allowed it to happen. Arden has taught me change doesn't have to be forgetting, but also, that my hatred isn't necessarily sound judgement.Because I would have hated him, and I don't. I love him.
Everything I feared becoming isn't so bad, some of my hatred was misplaced. But I'll still keep my promise to myself, I wont forget.
I wont become someone who would let myself forget.

A lot of my sense of self was based around the need for someone else. This is evident by my kintypes and lives... The deep childish desire for a savior to complete me. I didn't believe I could live otherwise. I know now thats not something others can offer, but they dont need to.I hated the kind of adult who would try to "save" me from myself, so I desired a destructive and monstrous savior. I still love monsters. Theres comfort and safety in the people who wear their darker natures on their sleeves - They aren't hiding behind friendly smiles and kind lies. And monsters wouldn't reject me for my darker aspects of self, or my deviant desires.I still love the one who served me for years, but I have regrets in regards to believing anyone was capable of fulfilling me in that way. Its not fair for so much to rest on one person.

When I was young the world taught me not to trust others. If you aren't like them, then they don't care about you. Thats what paramisia/mapmisma taught us. If you hate the people I love... You hate me too.So I developed my own hatred to not just match, but to go beyond. I fostered hatred and anger for others inside of me for years. I still hate most people. For most people I'm low empathy, I experience more empathy for young children and nonhumans. I don't trust people.I used to use those feelings not just to protect myself, but to feel superior. To feel in control. This would mean I wasn't always kind to others, and sometimes I didn't realize boundaries until things went too far.I still don't like most people, but I try to be polite now.

I'm Arden's daughter, Kill's little sister, Gale and Suzu's master, Tyki and Ricky's niece, Valkyn's apprentice, Jack's... ward?

Kintypes

A kintype is your current identity.

🐾 ! Kittykin ! 🐾

I'm black/dark purple though! :3

⬇️These are past lives and kintypes! ⬇️

Kardiatypes:

A kardiatype is a past life identity with a significant impact on current identity.

Past lives:

These are still important to me, and who I've become, but have less current influence.

Resonance

Resonance is something with the same "energy" as yourself.Right now, these are just worlds I feel like I belong in. Places that feel like home.

resonance image board

Heartypes/Linktypes

Heartypes are things/people you identify with, but not as.

None of the stuff here is mine. Its just a mood board basically. If you want a source you can ask, or just reverse image search. I'm not connected to any of these artists.

Arden drew this of my kitty form, sometimes feral sometimes anthro :3

I drew these ones!